THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY

BC PIRES

To overcome an obstacle or an enemy

To glide away from the razor or a knife

To dominate the impossible in your life

- Paul Simon, from the song The Rhythm of the Saints

THE BEAT of chemotherapy is not so much four-four as fortnightly. There are different toxic chemical strokes for different cancer folks but my oesophageal ardenocarcinoma (cancer of the gullet) required eight cycles of chemotherapy, four pre-surgery (which went off without too many hitches between September and November) and four post-surgery, all spaced two weeks apart.

Post-surgery chemo should have resumed on January 24 but only began on March 24, because I had so many complications after surgery in December, I lost almost 50 lbs and was too frail to withstand even a single 24-hour infusion of poisonous chemicals.

Widespread, massive internal swelling post-surgery prevented me from eating anything by mouth for six weeks from mid-January; and I had thrown up most of what I had eaten the month before, making my weight plummet from 175 lbs in December to under 129 lbs in February. I told one doctor I was in fear for my life; he said he would be, too. Second-opinion doctors advised me not to be keen on another surgery because I would be extremely unlikely to survive it.

And I really didn't need more post-surgery complications; the ones I already had were debilitating enough. For a fortnight after leaving hospital, I was still so weak, I could barely walk. I fainted once because I stood up too quickly. For almost two months, my blood pressure dropped to low 80s over low 60s, a side effect of being fed only whey-based protein liquid meals via stomach tube. One doctor even gave me a jokey prescription for two to three salt prunes daily. (Salt raises blood pressure.)

The rhythm of my chemo was drastically upset; nevertheless, I finished cycle number seven on Wednesday.

One more to go on May 2/3 and I'm done.

Hopefully for both good and better.

And what a devilish rhythm it has been: it comes in cycles, chemo, like the waves of attacks video gamers call swarms; which have the same overwhelming effect.

You get beh-beh with chemo.

And, now that I'm nearly finished them, with luck, I've finally understood why chemo cycles are spaced fortnightly: two weeks is the minimum time your body needs to recover from the last one. (Next Friday, I'll run through the main side effects and try to rank them for your entertainment.)

It's a helluva thing, chemo, as Mr Biswas would have said. The physical side of it, the rhythm of the science, is difficult enough to handle for most people to be satisfied with just coping with them.

I want to understand, and overcome, the mental side of it, even though I suspect it can only be done subconsciously.

As recently as 15 years ago, before some of the highly effective preventative tablets you can drop and forget, everyone receiving chemo would be violently nauseous from the moment the malevolent chemicals entered their bloodstrea